Ever felt stuck? Even in one area of your life, something you've just struggled to get rid of for years? I have, I continue to feel it in one specific area. But this being stuck has driven me, to break free, to participate in the workshops, meditation, to seek answers and embark on deeper and deeper work. As a result of this deeper work, in my understanding I am now "plugged in", reconnected to my Light Family. Not to overcomplicate things, but there could be many reasons for repeated challenges, that drive us, push us. But when we get the message why would we continue to be hit over the head with the same repeat messages? Could this be karma continuing to play out? There comes a point where being hit over the head with the same lesson becomes destructive, rather than constructive. I have taken action, I am on a new and improved path, but the kicking continues, which only slows my progress, wears me down and knocks me off track from time to time. So how about dumping the f+@king karma?
It's time to drop your karma. - Kryon
For those who have been reading my newsletters and articles and watching my videos for the past year or so, you'll be aware that my life has taken an unexpected turn. I've always been deeply spiritual, I've known I want and need to communicate, but I've never really thought as myself as an energy healer, I still don't. I was told in my very first ayahuasca ceremony by Mother Ayahuasca that I am a Light Worker. I did have a slight interest but didn't know where to start or really if it was just me looking for something to identify myself with. Well in a sense, healing found me.
As a result of last years ceremonies, my own ongoing meditation, and my use of Psilosybin (which I intend to discuss in detail soon) for meditations and channeling I have found myself practising as a healer of various sorts. I'm not particularly comfortable with that term, but it conveys what I need to say without having a long debate on what occurs. Ultimately I understand I am a teacher, I am here to teach and guide, but healing is an ability I now find myself with. I don't see this as my life's work, I see it as a stepping stone along this unfolding.
I think you were sent to me to take me to the next level but I doubt I could have worked with you until I had unplugged from the matrix. - Ria
I've recently started going to a sauna and steam-room again, I had not been in years but I love the intense heat. I used to practise Bikram Yoga on and off over the years and remember whenever I'd restart I'd naturally struggle with the heat, sometimes having to just lie on the mat to stay in the room. The instructors always suggested to at least stay in the room, even though you're body is panicking, try to sit on the mat or lie and just stay with it. Drinking water too is discouraged at it only cools the body, fighting the adaptation to the heat. So now I've have been experiencing the benefits of meditation in a sauna.
A few months back when I was screened to receive ayahuasca, I was asked if I had ever tried Holotropic Breathwork, I had not, I'd never heard of it before. I now know it is a practice for deep therapeutic work so not for everyone. I think when people exhaust the lighter means to feel good, perhaps addressing the more superficial causes, they may be forced to explore their trauma, or psyche and beyond into much deeper work, or remain in the struggle, stuck. Sometimes when the frustration and pain gets too much, we have little to lose, that's when the real work begins.
My article is only to briefly mention my own experience. With some of these practises I feel it best to dive in and get the experience, rather than the intellect trying to decipher how and why it works. The mind can ruin what would otherwise be a great new journey. If you wish to know more of the details, here is a good primer Twelve Things You Should Know About Holotropic Breathwork.
So I'll spare you the details of how it all works, just to say Holotropic Breathwork was created by psychiatrist Stan Groff in the 70's. Groff carried out a lot of work with LSD treating patients. When LSD became illegal Groff went in search of natural ways to achieve similar results, the result is Holotropic Breathwork.
This night was planned by my guides and ancestors.
We strive to be comfortable, we aim to make enough money to not have to work. Most of us plan holidays that allow us to do as little as possible and take it easy. We like routines, we take the same route to work, shop in the same shops, eat the same food, recycle the same comfortable clothes. We like to know how things will pan out, no shocks, no surprises, and most importantly, no chaos.
We are creatures of habit, yet habit bores us and we grow frustrated. So we begin to crave change. But change equals a degree of chaos.
First off, if you read my first ayahuasca post here, you'll know I am a sober addict and alcoholic. So for 16 years I didn't take any mind altering substance into my system. I never had any intention to. Ayahuasca is a calling, I heard the call. This may resonate with you, or sound like bollox, if you think the latter you're probably better off not reading the rest of this short article, but you'll miss out on the fascinating YouTube news (not really). Drinking ayahuasca is not something I did lightly or recommend to others. To fully understand why you're better off to read my earlier article on this subject here, so I won't repeat myself.
As my meditation course is launching soon (now launched) I thought I'd write a brief post about the subject. Anything I don't answer for you please feel free to send an email or put a question in the comments below.
I've been a regular user of meditation for about 23yrs and noticed from time to time as the perception and trend of meditation has changed. I have my own practices that just find me and I carry on with my own work. For a fuller picture of my own practices, experience and the course I recommend listening to the audio below.
I quit using toothpaste containing fluoride about 9 years ago but just continued buying expensive herbal fluoride-free toothpaste for the following years. I was just too lazy to have a go at making my own. About six months ago I finally tried, and its dead simple, takes very little time and works out far less expensive than the health store stuff.
I see "news", current affairs and politics as a distraction from our own inner guidance, I simply call it my gut instinct. Being led to conclusions rather than arriving at them in our own time by our own paths.
When I jump onto a "news" story, I sometimes lose myself. I follow the trail of reports, the outrage, the confusion, grief, anger, becoming exhausted, worn out, used, spat out by the media machine. Thankfully this occurs less and less these days as I gradually step back. All news sources have some sort of agenda, they're not doing us a favour by reporting to us, they are directing our awareness, our emotions, our energy, even the people we like and agree with.
Knowledge comes from learning, wisdom comes from letting go of what we think we know. - Gerar Toye
A few months back I wrote in detail of my first journey drinking Ayahusca, you can read the previous articles here. Since then I returned to drink the medicine three more times, once per month. This is a brief overview of those later ceremonies and some observations of what has happened since.
My first experience was quite traumatic, but I always knew, even during that continuous terrifying purging, that I would be back. I knew in my gut that it was no coincidence I had sought out that type of work, and there was further work for me to do, where it would lead I didn’t know, I still don’t. I'll continue where I left off, so if you have not read the previous articles I recommend doing so to have a fuller understanding.
I had a strong sense this night had all been planned perhaps three to five thousand years ago.