A few years back on the winter solstice in an ayahuasca ceremony, I was broken down. I had a horrid journey, snakes and demons snapping at me all night long. I struggled to retain consciousness, I kept drifting off and then waking up to entities all over me, in my face. I couldn't stay with the medicine. Without some consciousness we can't work with what is presented. I was sweating, I was purging loudly and disturbing the group.
In the previous months I had experienced great breakthroughs and went into ceremony with the expectation that this would be an end of year finale for me, set me up all rosy for the New Year. How wrong I was.
I experienced one of the most important and transformational nights of my life.
Four years ago during a medicine ceremony I journeyed over two nights through many different experiences as womankind, living and feeling all the pains and pressures, the violence and ways of survival, through many ages.
At the time I did not fully know why I was taken on that journey, but in the months that followed what began to unfold was the work I do today. I was tuned to work with women, with the feminine, to be able to read and guide women. That's not to say in this like I am a woman, nor that I fully understand, but I follow my guidance with those I work with. The work naturally developed to include men too over time. In the following years I have had journeys around the feminine but not often with Mother.
What would be born from a Golden Temple (womb), but only a Golden Race.
Consider reading with a beginners mind, consider that you might not know who you are or where you have come from. So when reading about reptilians don't assume they are something to be feared, and relevant to other people far away from you. I have met a number of people who are both human and reptilian and of course had no conscious awareness.
If we look at ourselves and those around us, we are barely conscious, of course we like to think we are awake and fully in control of our lives but with a little more contemplation we will concede that we have little awareness of who or what we are, and little or no conscious influence in the greater scheme of things. I don't know a single human personally who is fully conscious, so it is interesting to me that we have been sold the idea that reptilians seem to be fully conscious of what they are doing here. Like humans, many reptilians are not fully aware what they are doing and why, and many humans are also reptilian, among many other beings from other places. It's not them versus us, because many of us are these other beings without realising it. I myself spent a couple of years becoming aware of my own reptilian aspect, and thanks to people like David Icke I was horrified at first as I began to meet these pieces of myself. Reptilians are similar to humans in that there are good and not so good. We are all God consciousness, see nothing as a problem, merely find the gift within any aspect your ego perceives as a flaw. So if you begin to encounter others as reptilians or even yourself, be open to learning why you are being shown this, and how you can capitalize on this expansion, rather than fear it, as I did, and try to escape, which only slows down our awakening.
The body is moving to a new fuel source and this is the transitional period.
I have worked nearly 30yrs towards this present time, this Great shift, the Corona (Crown) Awakening. I wrote recently about King and Crown energy here. I knew it was coming for the past 3yrs but I didn't know what it would look like, and it's taken me time to recognise the opportunity. The egoic mind can be so convincing, yet to think it knows what a future awakening will look like, is ridiculous when we consider it. Yet another lesson of stepping away from the mind as master and into the unknown.
We have chosen this pause and reset. Life hasn't stopped, but it will accelerate, on each of our time lines as each of us reach our point of target. So your life may be sluggish and challenging for weeks or months, or just days, depending on your ability to be present and integrate. (Translation: consider not wasting time catching up on work, or watching Netflix, but being present with your own deconstruction/expansion)
The purpose of this pause is to return inward
If you follow me and you see me communicate with others, you see them attend my live insta meditations, connect with them, say “hello”, you don’t need to say anything else but feel free.
You know each other, you are Home.
We hold pieces for each other, heartbreak, remembrances, grief, love, blossoming, connect. We surrendered pieces of our hearts, our soul (soul retrieval) to each other along the path, in order to descend and fully embody the human, now we return those pieces to each other. No need to “think” how to do this, connect and be in the flow of your heart.
Be in the flow of your heart
A couple weeks back I wrote an Instagram post on receiving my sword in a holotropic breathwork session. Today's post covers a trip to Dowth, a sacred site in Ireland, where a couple years ago I received my crown in an initiation. Dowth, and more famously Newgrange are Irish sites older than the Egyptian pyramids and Stonehenge. Dowth is a collapsed cairn or tomb, in an area of Ireland where there are many of these sites, some really overrun with tourism. But Dowth is often quiet, not many people go there, you can drive up a narrow country road, pull in to the side and simply walk into the field and walk around.
Myself and a friend had been visiting a few of these sites regularly when guided to. Dowth to us had been revealed as the home of what we termed as Dark Mother, the shadow of Mother, the frustrated, manipulated, manipulative, abandoned, undesired, unfulfilled side of the feminine.
We have experienced periods in this life and previously when we felt more connected to the earth, to nature, and to ourselves, to our instinct, our spirit, in tune with life, in the flow. This is the beauty of being in tune with the Inner World, not lost in it imagining light bubbles and chakras, but in harmony.
Our lives in the modern world especially are so busy, and so full of distractions that it's understandable that we can get sucked into the Outer World, the physical plane, and think that our experience represents who we are.
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside dreams, who looks inside awakens. - Carl Jung
It’s the spring equinox, and later this evening the full moon peaks.
Earlier I felt I needed to be still. I sat in the dark, as I do often, and observed within.
I became aware of fierce tension in my upper back and neck.
I stayed present with it and allowed it to lock with tightness. I witnessed it, the tension, the energy, the frequency as being. I welcomed it and assured it I was not going anywhere. I would stay there forever in that state, I had no place to go. This raging frequency within me was and is my priority.
I invited it to live within my heart and assured it that we were one.
Out of the chaos came the light. Out of the will came life. - The Egyptian Book of the Dead
Twelve years ago I was in a Ramtha retreat high in the Italian mountains, far away from anywhere. After a focus exercise, I stopped breathing for what felt like minutes. I mean three or four minutes. My body didn’t breathe, I had no need to breathe. I didn’t plan or intend this, my mind was elsewhere until I realised my body was no longer breathing, so I lay there and observed the stillness, until the breath began again.
If you're invested in security and certainty, you are on the wrong planet.
— Pema Chödrön
How do we get to a higher human experience? How about a higher relationship with a mate truly on our level? Or a career that is totally purposeful and fulfilling? Or sex that is passionate and free of any hangups or insecurities, shame or guilt? To feel free around others, without social pressure, to be at ease? How do we work towards heaven on earth?
A person hears only what they understand. - Goethe