In a ceremony last weekend I received further guidance on who I am and what my role here is, but I also encountered yet more dark energy that I released. This dark energy can be called entities or demons but increasingly I feel the later terms are not warranted. The demons or entities are in fact merely energy, that we form from our own consciousness. I am the darkness and the light.
But something I have often heard others talk about, and I "believed" myself, I finally had the fortune to experience. I was shown that all is from the light. In the retreat on my journey, it can feel as if there is no time, so I don't know how long this lesson took, I assume moments or minutes in our own understanding.
I was shown that all is from the light.
Late last year during a weekend workshop exploring feminine energy I experienced some changes that have rerouted my life, giving me greater understanding, and purpose, specifically with women. Finding myself increasingly aware of, and empathetic to their emotions, instinctively knowing how each individual found themselves at whatever place they were in their lives. I can read their emotional state, I can see the pain they carry hat they may not even be consciously aware of. I began to instinctively guide them through the turmoil and help energetically release any trapped trauma that I was finding. I was told through shamanic ceremonies by my guides that women would be sent to me, and with a pattern of different women appearing, who I felt I knew, I began to see the trend.
As I mentioned in the previous article, I knew already that I have possibly undertaken a lot of work in previous lives to find myself at this point. This life feels like Life Number 1, a new beginning, after a long time of training and choosing to get lost, to learn and gather more experience of humanity, right now feels like the beginning of my work that I will carry on through future lifetimes. I'm plugged in now, I'm reconnected to my Light Family, and bit by bit more is being revealed, as and when I am ready.
The Mother Goddess talked to me of specific women on the planet known as Queens.
Over two recent ceremonies I was shown that I can heal with my hands, most recently this past weekend during a Holotropic Breathwork weekend at Dunderry house. I now know I need to develop this skill as I have done with some of my other work, so I need some people to work with, you can be anywhere in the world, I work remotely, and maybe we can be of help to each other.
Many of us are discovering we have different skills and abilities to add to each others lives, to provide a service to our family and friends, to develop our communities. Of late I have been working with women and developing their divine feminine, balancing their masculine and feminine energy, and witnessing powerful results. I am also working in energy healing, and have had great results, but have only worked with physical injuries. I still doubted myself with anything more serious, thinking "well serious diseases and ailments are best left to the professionals". When some of the women I have worked with have really seen improvements in their lives and relationships, felt happier, calmer, I can measure this improvement. So now its time to seek those equivalent results with physical healing.
I learned of the great powers in my hands during my breathwork journey.
Ever felt stuck? Even in one area of your life, something you've just struggled to get rid of for years? I have, I continue to feel it in one specific area. But this being stuck has driven me, to break free, to participate in the workshops, meditation, to seek answers and embark on deeper and deeper work. As a result of this deeper work, in my understanding I am now "plugged in", reconnected to my Light Family. Not to overcomplicate things, but there could be many reasons for repeated challenges, that drive us, push us. But when we get the message why would we continue to be hit over the head with the same repeat messages? Could this be karma continuing to play out? There comes a point where being hit over the head with the same lesson becomes destructive, rather than constructive. I have taken action, I am on a new and improved path, but the kicking continues, which only slows my progress, wears me down and knocks me off track from time to time. So how about dumping the f+@king karma?
It's time to drop your karma. - Kryon
A few months back when I was screened to receive ayahuasca, I was asked if I had ever tried Holotropic Breathwork, I had not, I'd never heard of it before. I now know it is a practice for deep therapeutic work so not for everyone. I think when people exhaust the lighter means to feel good, perhaps addressing the more superficial causes, they may be forced to explore their trauma, or psyche and beyond into much deeper work, or remain in the struggle, stuck. Sometimes when the frustration and pain gets too much, we have little to lose, that's when the real work begins.
My article is only to briefly mention my own experience. With some of these practises I feel it best to dive in and get the experience, rather than the intellect trying to decipher how and why it works. The mind can ruin what would otherwise be a great new journey. If you wish to know more of the details, here is a good primer Twelve Things You Should Know About Holotropic Breathwork.
So I'll spare you the details of how it all works, just to say Holotropic Breathwork was created by psychiatrist Stan Groff in the 70's. Groff carried out a lot of work with LSD treating patients. When LSD became illegal Groff went in search of natural ways to achieve similar results, the result is Holotropic Breathwork.
This night was planned by my guides and ancestors.
A few months back I wrote in detail of my first journey drinking Ayahusca, you can read the previous articles here. Since then I returned to drink the medicine three more times, once per month. This is a brief overview of those later ceremonies and some observations of what has happened since.
My first experience was quite traumatic, but I always knew, even during that continuous terrifying purging, that I would be back. I knew in my gut that it was no coincidence I had sought out that type of work, and there was further work for me to do, where it would lead I didn’t know, I still don’t. I'll continue where I left off, so if you have not read the previous articles I recommend doing so to have a fuller understanding.
I had a strong sense this night had all been planned perhaps three to five thousand years ago.
My own understanding of karma has evolved over the years, from some form of repercussion due to destructive behaviour, or a reward when it is constructive behaviour. The reason for a repercussion is not to punish, this is just a feedback mechanism. I no longer view karma as being as limited as this. I see it being tied into evolution in a great way. Thus the name of this site, my interest in evolution through many lifetimes really interests me. This is a long haul, amassing trauma through many births and deaths alone is heavy, but consider the unresolved natural disasters around us within these lives, the murders, crimes, despair and so on. The accumulative affect of these trying experiences can weigh heavy on us, when not resolved. So how I can try to curtail further trauma and suffering I often contemplate.
We are the car on the road...and the bird that shits on the windscreen.
Recently I have been contemplating the theory that our lives and decisions are predetermined. The idea that something, consciousness is steering my life. I don't mean "I am being guided". I mean choices are being presented in every moment, who or what is presenting these choices? Gary Weber, in a number of his talks discusses predestination in more detail, but points out in some tests the brain responds to a problem, before the problem is presented. This might explain how we "just knew..." someone was going to phone, or had that feeling, or intuition. It suggests that our brains are already milliseconds or seconds behind what is continuously unfolding in consciousness.
You can will what you want, you can't will what you will. - Gary Weber
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