A few years back on the winter solstice in an ayahuasca ceremony, I was broken down. I had a horrid journey, snakes and demons snapping at me all night long. I struggled to retain consciousness, I kept drifting off and then waking up to entities all over me, in my face. I couldn't stay with the medicine. Without some consciousness we can't work with what is presented. I was sweating, I was purging loudly and disturbing the group.
In the previous months I had experienced great breakthroughs and went into ceremony with the expectation that this would be an end of year finale for me, set me up all rosy for the New Year. How wrong I was.
I experienced one of the most important and transformational nights of my life.
We have experienced periods in this life and previously when we felt more connected to the earth, to nature, and to ourselves, to our instinct, our spirit, in tune with life, in the flow. This is the beauty of being in tune with the Inner World, not lost in it imagining light bubbles and chakras, but in harmony.
Our lives in the modern world especially are so busy, and so full of distractions that it's understandable that we can get sucked into the Outer World, the physical plane, and think that our experience represents who we are.
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside dreams, who looks inside awakens. - Carl Jung
It’s the spring equinox, and later this evening the full moon peaks.
Earlier I felt I needed to be still. I sat in the dark, as I do often, and observed within.
I became aware of fierce tension in my upper back and neck.
I stayed present with it and allowed it to lock with tightness. I witnessed it, the tension, the energy, the frequency as being. I welcomed it and assured it I was not going anywhere. I would stay there forever in that state, I had no place to go. This raging frequency within me was and is my priority.
I invited it to live within my heart and assured it that we were one.
Out of the chaos came the light. Out of the will came life. - The Egyptian Book of the Dead
We are already free, we are already whole, we are already enough, but to realise these states, can only be done by testing the boundaries, to find the walls of the cage, to push against them, to indulge in all the third dimensional pleasures and distractions, and lose ourselves. By losing our true spirit, by getting lost down narrow avenues, we realise we miss the great expanse of our own souls, and as this discomfort settles in, so begins the journey home. We must lose ourselves, to find ourselves. This is the journey we are on. This is the Homecoming. And from this life, right now, (you did chose to come to this site and read this article), if we can retain some degree of self awareness, can hold a beginning, middle and end, we can add a little more conscious wisdom to our storehouse, and very gradually the path begins to unfold before us.
Whereas once I was lost, now I am found,
Whereas once i was blind now i can see
Some changes happening with the healing work I do. As this work evolves I am seeing how best to tailor it, to hopefully give those I work with the best experience, and to honour the work itself. I am humbled and honoured to do this work with whoever comes my way.
We live in an extremely dependent society, with many calling for more dependency. Governments are growing worldwide, with protesters in the streets calling for even more government control of their lives. As I've mentioned before in articles and videos, this crying out is an inability to be still, to observe and release our own rising pain. Unaware that this discomfort stems from within, many want someone else to be responsible, or to make them feel better. I seek power, and there are others I see and admire who are drawing up that great energy from deep within.
Self empowerment is not handed to us by politicians or revolutionaries. And we don't battle enemies to attain it, we battle ourselves.
Moving on from what we have learned in the first two parts: absolutely everything is a mirror of our consciousness, and even the heavy experiences were agreed to by our higher self as a learning experience, the purpose of this article is practicality, what can we do day to day to make use of that awareness?
How you respond to circumstances is what determines your state of being. - Bashar
As I've been attending various healing ceremonies and weekends of late I thought I'd write a guide for anyone seeking to engage in some deeper spiritual work on themselves. Often people don't know where to start or what to look for so I thought I'd give a few pointers that may be of use.
I could actually finish this post by just saying : Trust your gut, but I'll elaborate a little.
Follow your instinct, you may feel its time to engage in something light, that makes you feel good and enjoy life, perhaps yoga or meditation, some kind of spiritual discussion group. Go for it, get out there, there really is so much to choose from these days both online and locally to open our minds to a new way of viewing the world. Meditation many think is about being blissed out, I don't think it is, I've written about the challenge that is meditation here, a realistic view.
This is the second of three parts on reality. Read Part 1 There Is No Spoon - How To Manipulate Reality here.
To carry on from part one, we may struggle with some heavy experiences in our lives such as deaths, accidents, abuse etc. It's not easy to take responsibility for these things and it takes time and regular reminders as its very easy to slip into blame or victim mode.
A couple of points I am exploring regarding those heavy and dark experiences we've had:
It's not that others are not real, it's that what you experience is made out of your own energy in your reality. - Bashar
This is the first in a three part series on what reality potentially is, from a truly practical perspective, forget philosophy and spiritual theory and pondering, what the f%*k can we do to actually get free, to improve our lives, to heal? That is the purpose of these three pieces.
The first step to improving any area of our lives, changing anything we are unhappy with or that needs adjustment is taking responsibility for what we don’t like. The more areas of our lives we can take responsibility for, the more power we have to make changes, and thus improve our quality of life. Makes sense.
Talk to most spiritual people and they’ll agree, sure, we create our reality. Start asking questions and you’ll soon be told that maybe they have created some good kids, but they don’t know why they misbehave in school, or they created the great job, but not the asshole co-worker, or the lovely house but not the central heating which continues to cause problems, or the traffic on the way home from work, or the war in the middle East. You see where I'm going.
How about everything that enters your life, I mean absolutely every single thing, is a mirror of your consciousness.