In a ceremony last weekend I received further guidance on who I am and what my role here is, but I also encountered yet more dark energy that I released. This dark energy can be called entities or demons but increasingly I feel the later terms are not warranted. The demons or entities are in fact merely energy, that we form from our own consciousness. I am the darkness and the light.
But something I have often heard others talk about, and I "believed" myself, I finally had the fortune to experience. I was shown that all is from the light. In the retreat on my journey, it can feel as if there is no time, so I don't know how long this lesson took, I assume moments or minutes in our own understanding.
I was shown that all is from the light.
Late last year during a weekend workshop exploring feminine energy I experienced some changes that have rerouted my life, giving me greater understanding, and purpose, specifically with women. Finding myself increasingly aware of, and empathetic to their emotions, instinctively knowing how each individual found themselves at whatever place they were in their lives. I can read their emotional state, I can see the pain they carry hat they may not even be consciously aware of. I began to instinctively guide them through the turmoil and help energetically release any trapped trauma that I was finding. I was told through shamanic ceremonies by my guides that women would be sent to me, and with a pattern of different women appearing, who I felt I knew, I began to see the trend.
As I mentioned in the previous article, I knew already that I have possibly undertaken a lot of work in previous lives to find myself at this point. This life feels like Life Number 1, a new beginning, after a long time of training and choosing to get lost, to learn and gather more experience of humanity, right now feels like the beginning of my work that I will carry on through future lifetimes. I'm plugged in now, I'm reconnected to my Light Family, and bit by bit more is being revealed, as and when I am ready.
The Mother Goddess talked to me of specific women on the planet known as Queens.
Over two recent ceremonies I was shown that I can heal with my hands, most recently this past weekend during a Holotropic Breathwork weekend at Dunderry house. I now know I need to develop this skill as I have done with some of my other work, so I need some people to work with, you can be anywhere in the world, I work remotely, and maybe we can be of help to each other.
Many of us are discovering we have different skills and abilities to add to each others lives, to provide a service to our family and friends, to develop our communities. Of late I have been working with women and developing their divine feminine, balancing their masculine and feminine energy, and witnessing powerful results. I am also working in energy healing, and have had great results, but have only worked with physical injuries. I still doubted myself with anything more serious, thinking "well serious diseases and ailments are best left to the professionals". When some of the women I have worked with have really seen improvements in their lives and relationships, felt happier, calmer, I can measure this improvement. So now its time to seek those equivalent results with physical healing.
I learned of the great powers in my hands during my breathwork journey.
Ever felt stuck? Even in one area of your life, something you've just struggled to get rid of for years? I have, I continue to feel it in one specific area. But this being stuck has driven me, to break free, to participate in the workshops, meditation, to seek answers and embark on deeper and deeper work. As a result of this deeper work, in my understanding I am now "plugged in", reconnected to my Light Family. Not to overcomplicate things, but there could be many reasons for repeated challenges, that drive us, push us. But when we get the message why would we continue to be hit over the head with the same repeat messages? Could this be karma continuing to play out? There comes a point where being hit over the head with the same lesson becomes destructive, rather than constructive. I have taken action, I am on a new and improved path, but the kicking continues, which only slows my progress, wears me down and knocks me off track from time to time. So how about dumping the f+@king karma?
It's time to drop your karma. - Kryon
For those who have been reading my newsletters and articles and watching my videos for the past year or so, you'll be aware that my life has taken an unexpected turn. I've always been deeply spiritual, I've known I want and need to communicate, but I've never really thought as myself as an energy healer, I still don't. I was told in my very first ayahuasca ceremony by Mother Ayahuasca that I am a Light Worker. I did have a slight interest but didn't know where to start or really if it was just me looking for something to identify myself with. Well in a sense, healing found me.
As a result of last years ceremonies, my own ongoing meditation, and my use of Psilosybin (which I intend to discuss in detail soon) for meditations and channeling I have found myself practising as a healer of various sorts. I'm not particularly comfortable with that term, but it conveys what I need to say without having a long debate on what occurs. Ultimately I understand I am a teacher, I am here to teach and guide, but healing is an ability I now find myself with. I don't see this as my life's work, I see it as a stepping stone along this unfolding.
I think you were sent to me to take me to the next level but I doubt I could have worked with you until I had unplugged from the matrix. - Ria
I've recently started going to a sauna and steam-room again, I had not been in years but I love the intense heat. I used to practise Bikram Yoga on and off over the years and remember whenever I'd restart I'd naturally struggle with the heat, sometimes having to just lie on the mat to stay in the room. The instructors always suggested to at least stay in the room, even though you're body is panicking, try to sit on the mat or lie and just stay with it. Drinking water too is discouraged at it only cools the body, fighting the adaptation to the heat. So now I've have been experiencing the benefits of meditation in a sauna.
A few months back when I was screened to receive ayahuasca, I was asked if I had ever tried Holotropic Breathwork, I had not, I'd never heard of it before. I now know it is a practice for deep therapeutic work so not for everyone. I think when people exhaust the lighter means to feel good, perhaps addressing the more superficial causes, they may be forced to explore their trauma, or psyche and beyond into much deeper work, or remain in the struggle, stuck. Sometimes when the frustration and pain gets too much, we have little to lose, that's when the real work begins.
My article is only to briefly mention my own experience. With some of these practises I feel it best to dive in and get the experience, rather than the intellect trying to decipher how and why it works. The mind can ruin what would otherwise be a great new journey. If you wish to know more of the details, here is a good primer Twelve Things You Should Know About Holotropic Breathwork.
So I'll spare you the details of how it all works, just to say Holotropic Breathwork was created by psychiatrist Stan Groff in the 70's. Groff carried out a lot of work with LSD treating patients. When LSD became illegal Groff went in search of natural ways to achieve similar results, the result is Holotropic Breathwork.
This night was planned by my guides and ancestors.
We strive to be comfortable, we aim to make enough money to not have to work. Most of us plan holidays that allow us to do as little as possible and take it easy. We like routines, we take the same route to work, shop in the same shops, eat the same food, recycle the same comfortable clothes. We like to know how things will pan out, no shocks, no surprises, and most importantly, no chaos.
We are creatures of habit, yet habit bores us and we grow frustrated. So we begin to crave change. But change equals a degree of chaos.
First off, if you read my first ayahuasca post here, you'll know I am a sober addict and alcoholic. So for 16 years I didn't take any mind altering substance into my system. I never had any intention to. Ayahuasca is a calling, I heard the call. This may resonate with you, or sound like bollox, if you think the latter you're probably better off not reading the rest of this short article, but you'll miss out on the fascinating YouTube news (not really). Drinking ayahuasca is not something I did lightly or recommend to others. To fully understand why you're better off to read my earlier article on this subject here, so I won't repeat myself.
As my meditation course is launching soon (now launched) I thought I'd write a brief post about the subject. Anything I don't answer for you please feel free to send an email or put a question in the comments below.
I've been a regular user of meditation for about 23yrs and noticed from time to time as the perception and trend of meditation has changed. I have my own practices that just find me and I carry on with my own work. For a fuller picture of my own practices, experience and the course I recommend listening to the audio below.