As I've been attending various healing ceremonies and weekends of late I thought I'd write a guide for anyone seeking to engage in some deeper spiritual work on themselves. Often people don't know where to start or what to look for so I thought I'd give a few pointers that may be of use.
I could actually finish this post by just saying : Trust your gut, but I'll elaborate a little.
Follow your instinct, you may feel its time to engage in something light, that makes you feel good and enjoy life, perhaps yoga or meditation, some kind of spiritual discussion group. Go for it, get out there, there really is so much to choose from these days both online and locally to open our minds to a new way of viewing the world. Meditation many think is about being blissed out, I don't think it is, I've written about the challenge that is meditation here, a realistic view.
This is the second of three parts on reality. Read Part 1 There Is No Spoon - How To Manipulate Reality here.
To carry on from part one, we may struggle with some heavy experiences in our lives such as deaths, accidents, abuse etc. It's not easy to take responsibility for these things and it takes time and regular reminders as its very easy to slip into blame or victim mode.
A couple of points I am exploring regarding those heavy and dark experiences we've had:
It's not that others are not real, it's that what you experience is made out of your own energy in your reality. - Bashar
In a ceremony last weekend I received further guidance on who I am and what my role here is, but I also encountered yet more dark energy that I released. This dark energy can be called entities or demons but increasingly I feel the later terms are not warranted. The demons or entities are in fact merely energy, that we form from our own consciousness. I am the darkness and the light.
But something I have often heard others talk about, and I "believed" myself, I finally had the fortune to experience. I was shown that all is from the light. In the retreat on my journey, it can feel as if there is no time, so I don't know how long this lesson took, I assume moments or minutes in our own understanding.
I was shown that all is from the light.
For those who have been reading my newsletters and articles and watching my videos for the past year or so, you'll be aware that my life has taken an unexpected turn. I've always been deeply spiritual, I've known I want and need to communicate, but I've never really thought as myself as an energy healer, I still don't. I was told in my very first ayahuasca ceremony by Mother Ayahuasca that I am a Light Worker. I did have a slight interest but didn't know where to start or really if it was just me looking for something to identify myself with. Well in a sense, healing found me.
As a result of last years ceremonies, my own ongoing meditation, and my use of Psilosybin (which I intend to discuss in detail soon) for meditations and channeling I have found myself practising as a healer of various sorts. I'm not particularly comfortable with that term, but it conveys what I need to say without having a long debate on what occurs. Ultimately I understand I am a teacher, I am here to teach and guide, but healing is an ability I now find myself with. I don't see this as my life's work, I see it as a stepping stone along this unfolding.
I think you were sent to me to take me to the next level but I doubt I could have worked with you until I had unplugged from the matrix. - Ria
I've recently started going to a sauna and steam-room again, I had not been in years but I love the intense heat. I used to practise Bikram Yoga on and off over the years and remember whenever I'd restart I'd naturally struggle with the heat, sometimes having to just lie on the mat to stay in the room. The instructors always suggested to at least stay in the room, even though you're body is panicking, try to sit on the mat or lie and just stay with it. Drinking water too is discouraged at it only cools the body, fighting the adaptation to the heat. So now I've have been experiencing the benefits of meditation in a sauna.
A few months back when I was screened to receive ayahuasca, I was asked if I had ever tried Holotropic Breathwork, I had not, I'd never heard of it before. I now know it is a practice for deep therapeutic work so not for everyone. I think when people exhaust the lighter means to feel good, perhaps addressing the more superficial causes, they may be forced to explore their trauma, or psyche and beyond into much deeper work, or remain in the struggle, stuck. Sometimes when the frustration and pain gets too much, we have little to lose, that's when the real work begins.
My article is only to briefly mention my own experience. With some of these practises I feel it best to dive in and get the experience, rather than the intellect trying to decipher how and why it works. The mind can ruin what would otherwise be a great new journey. If you wish to know more of the details, here is a good primer Twelve Things You Should Know About Holotropic Breathwork.
So I'll spare you the details of how it all works, just to say Holotropic Breathwork was created by psychiatrist Stan Groff in the 70's. Groff carried out a lot of work with LSD treating patients. When LSD became illegal Groff went in search of natural ways to achieve similar results, the result is Holotropic Breathwork.
This night was planned by my guides and ancestors.
We strive to be comfortable, we aim to make enough money to not have to work. Most of us plan holidays that allow us to do as little as possible and take it easy. We like routines, we take the same route to work, shop in the same shops, eat the same food, recycle the same comfortable clothes. We like to know how things will pan out, no shocks, no surprises, and most importantly, no chaos.
We are creatures of habit, yet habit bores us and we grow frustrated. So we begin to crave change. But change equals a degree of chaos.
First off, if you read my first ayahuasca post here, you'll know I am a sober addict and alcoholic. So for 16 years I didn't take any mind altering substance into my system. I never had any intention to. Ayahuasca is a calling, I heard the call. This may resonate with you, or sound like bollox, if you think the latter you're probably better off not reading the rest of this short article, but you'll miss out on the fascinating YouTube news (not really). Drinking ayahuasca is not something I did lightly or recommend to others. To fully understand why you're better off to read my earlier article on this subject here, so I won't repeat myself.
A few months back I wrote in detail of my first journey drinking Ayahusca, you can read the previous articles here. Since then I returned to drink the medicine three more times, once per month. This is a brief overview of those later ceremonies and some observations of what has happened since.
My first experience was quite traumatic, but I always knew, even during that continuous terrifying purging, that I would be back. I knew in my gut that it was no coincidence I had sought out that type of work, and there was further work for me to do, where it would lead I didn’t know, I still don’t. I'll continue where I left off, so if you have not read the previous articles I recommend doing so to have a fuller understanding.
I had a strong sense this night had all been planned perhaps three to five thousand years ago.
Awakening is a term used more and more these days to indicate that many people in society are beginning to view the world differently, and, we like to think, live from a higher state of consciousness. I used it recently in my article observing the various sides of the flat earth movement, you can read the article here: The Great Awakening - Flat Earth.
Information that previously we may never have even been aware of, or perhaps not have considered relevant to us suddenly has an attraction. I’ve seen many people who previously never had any interest in meditation, or yoga, or anything that may broaden their mind to alternative ways of living or perceiving the world, in recent years they've began to explore various alternative medicines, healing therapies and begin to read the alternative media, switching off the television. They start to feel the struggle in the world, or more accurately to notice the struggle within themselves, to let go of their old persona, to evolve beyond career and relationships.
What we think we know at any given moment is just part of the unfolding. Continue Reading