The last week has been a (perfect) mess, I feel I'm wading through oil at times. To give you an idea of how I ended up here, what it looks like, and how I get through it, read on.
There's plenty of articles and videos online right now about the Solar Eclipse due in a few days. And there are far more qualified people than I to explain what will occur, and perhaps what it all means. So I won't take you down that path.
I will just point out that during some of these larger solar or astrological changes I have noticed myself to be under a little or a lot more pressure. Often with these changes we think of energy upgrades and downloads of new information and abilities. The internet points out all the glowing ascension stuff with lots of fluffy terminology. That's all well and good and may well be the case. But often, not always, these shifts can knock us for a few days. My own experience is that most of my own upgrades have come at a price, after challenging dark ceremonies or periods of recovery, I managed to crawl out of the woods a little wiser or lighter than before.
Dreaming and visualisation is wonderful, but action is what changes your world.
Over a recent weekend I entered into a couple of deeper works, a Holotropic Breathwork day on Saturday, my fourth this year, and I received DMT in ceremony on Monday, my first time with this medicine. In the days after I can feel I'm wide open, irritable, vulnerable, sensitive, and the reflection is palpable. When I tune in, become present and conscious, I can see what has been placed before me is intentional, and purposeful for my awareness and growth, certainly not random. The sense of an expanded consciousness is both invigorating and frightening. The familiar world view is comfortable, the confusion of that falling away is unnerving and leads to the "am I going mad?" thought from time to time. But out of this new unexplored state, comes new ideas and perceptions, a small step further into awareness of my path, of who and what I am, of what this place is.
Expansion is now
Some changes happening with the healing work I do. As this work evolves I am seeing how best to tailor it, to hopefully give those I work with the best experience, and to honour the work itself. I am humbled and honoured to do this work with whoever comes my way.
We live in an extremely dependent society, with many calling for more dependency. Governments are growing worldwide, with protesters in the streets calling for even more government control of their lives. As I've mentioned before in articles and videos, this crying out is an inability to be still, to observe and release our own rising pain. Unaware that this discomfort stems from within, many want someone else to be responsible, or to make them feel better. I seek power, and there are others I see and admire who are drawing up that great energy from deep within.
Self empowerment is not handed to us by politicians or revolutionaries. And we don't battle enemies to attain it, we battle ourselves.
As I've been attending various healing ceremonies and weekends of late I thought I'd write a guide for anyone seeking to engage in some deeper spiritual work on themselves. Often people don't know where to start or what to look for so I thought I'd give a few pointers that may be of use.
I could actually finish this post by just saying : Trust your gut, but I'll elaborate a little.
Follow your instinct, you may feel its time to engage in something light, that makes you feel good and enjoy life, perhaps yoga or meditation, some kind of spiritual discussion group. Go for it, get out there, there really is so much to choose from these days both online and locally to open our minds to a new way of viewing the world. Meditation many think is about being blissed out, I don't think it is, I've written about the challenge that is meditation here, a realistic view.
This is the second of three parts on reality. Read Part 1 There Is No Spoon - How To Manipulate Reality here.
To carry on from part one, we may struggle with some heavy experiences in our lives such as deaths, accidents, abuse etc. It's not easy to take responsibility for these things and it takes time and regular reminders as its very easy to slip into blame or victim mode.
A couple of points I am exploring regarding those heavy and dark experiences we've had:
It's not that others are not real, it's that what you experience is made out of your own energy in your reality. - Bashar
Late last year during a weekend workshop exploring feminine energy I experienced some changes that have rerouted my life, giving me greater understanding, and purpose, specifically with women. Finding myself increasingly aware of, and empathetic to their emotions, instinctively knowing how each individual found themselves at whatever place they were in their lives. I can read their emotional state, I can see the pain they carry hat they may not even be consciously aware of. I began to instinctively guide them through the turmoil and help energetically release any trapped trauma that I was finding. I was told through shamanic ceremonies by my guides that women would be sent to me, and with a pattern of different women appearing, who I felt I knew, I began to see the trend.
As I mentioned in the previous article, I knew already that I have possibly undertaken a lot of work in previous lives to find myself at this point. This life feels like Life Number 1, a new beginning, after a long time of training and choosing to get lost, to learn and gather more experience of humanity, right now feels like the beginning of my work that I will carry on through future lifetimes. I'm plugged in now, I'm reconnected to my Light Family, and bit by bit more is being revealed, as and when I am ready.
The Mother Goddess talked to me of specific women on the planet known as Queens.
Over two recent ceremonies I was shown that I can heal with my hands, most recently this past weekend during a Holotropic Breathwork weekend at Dunderry house. I now know I need to develop this skill as I have done with some of my other work, so I need some people to work with, you can be anywhere in the world, I work remotely, and maybe we can be of help to each other.
Many of us are discovering we have different skills and abilities to add to each others lives, to provide a service to our family and friends, to develop our communities. Of late I have been working with women and developing their divine feminine, balancing their masculine and feminine energy, and witnessing powerful results. I am also working in energy healing, and have had great results, but have only worked with physical injuries. I still doubted myself with anything more serious, thinking "well serious diseases and ailments are best left to the professionals". When some of the women I have worked with have really seen improvements in their lives and relationships, felt happier, calmer, I can measure this improvement. So now its time to seek those equivalent results with physical healing.
I learned of the great powers in my hands during my breathwork journey.
For those who have been reading my newsletters and articles and watching my videos for the past year or so, you'll be aware that my life has taken an unexpected turn. I've always been deeply spiritual, I've known I want and need to communicate, but I've never really thought as myself as an energy healer, I still don't. I was told in my very first ayahuasca ceremony by Mother Ayahuasca that I am a Light Worker. I did have a slight interest but didn't know where to start or really if it was just me looking for something to identify myself with. Well in a sense, healing found me.
As a result of last years ceremonies, my own ongoing meditation, and my use of Psilosybin (which I intend to discuss in detail soon) for meditations and channeling I have found myself practising as a healer of various sorts. I'm not particularly comfortable with that term, but it conveys what I need to say without having a long debate on what occurs. Ultimately I understand I am a teacher, I am here to teach and guide, but healing is an ability I now find myself with. I don't see this as my life's work, I see it as a stepping stone along this unfolding.
I think you were sent to me to take me to the next level but I doubt I could have worked with you until I had unplugged from the matrix. - Ria