A few years back on the winter solstice in an ayahuasca ceremony, I was broken down. I had a horrid journey, snakes and demons snapping at me all night long. I struggled to retain consciousness, I kept drifting off and then waking up to entities all over me, in my face. I couldn't stay with the medicine. Without some consciousness we can't work with what is presented. I was sweating, I was purging loudly and disturbing the group.
In the previous months I had experienced great breakthroughs and went into ceremony with the expectation that this would be an end of year finale for me, set me up all rosy for the New Year. How wrong I was.
I experienced one of the most important and transformational nights of my life.
Consider reading with a beginners mind, consider that you might not know who you are or where you have come from. So when reading about reptilians don't assume they are something to be feared, and relevant to other people far away from you. I have met a number of people who are both human and reptilian and of course had no conscious awareness.
If we look at ourselves and those around us, we are barely conscious, of course we like to think we are awake and fully in control of our lives but with a little more contemplation we will concede that we have little awareness of who or what we are, and little or no conscious influence in the greater scheme of things. I don't know a single human personally who is fully conscious, so it is interesting to me that we have been sold the idea that reptilians seem to be fully conscious of what they are doing here. Like humans, many reptilians are not fully aware what they are doing and why, and many humans are also reptilian, among many other beings from other places. It's not them versus us, because many of us are these other beings without realising it. I myself spent a couple of years becoming aware of my own reptilian aspect, and thanks to people like David Icke I was horrified at first as I began to meet these pieces of myself. Reptilians are similar to humans in that there are good and not so good. We are all God consciousness, see nothing as a problem, merely find the gift within any aspect your ego perceives as a flaw. So if you begin to encounter others as reptilians or even yourself, be open to learning why you are being shown this, and how you can capitalize on this expansion, rather than fear it, as I did, and try to escape, which only slows down our awakening.
The body is moving to a new fuel source and this is the transitional period.
It’s the spring equinox, and later this evening the full moon peaks.
Earlier I felt I needed to be still. I sat in the dark, as I do often, and observed within.
I became aware of fierce tension in my upper back and neck.
I stayed present with it and allowed it to lock with tightness. I witnessed it, the tension, the energy, the frequency as being. I welcomed it and assured it I was not going anywhere. I would stay there forever in that state, I had no place to go. This raging frequency within me was and is my priority.
I invited it to live within my heart and assured it that we were one.
Out of the chaos came the light. Out of the will came life. - The Egyptian Book of the Dead
Twelve years ago I was in a Ramtha retreat high in the Italian mountains, far away from anywhere. After a focus exercise, I stopped breathing for what felt like minutes. I mean three or four minutes. My body didn’t breathe, I had no need to breathe. I didn’t plan or intend this, my mind was elsewhere until I realised my body was no longer breathing, so I lay there and observed the stillness, until the breath began again.
If you're invested in security and certainty, you are on the wrong planet.
— Pema Chödrön
Moving on from what we have learned in the first two parts: absolutely everything is a mirror of our consciousness, and even the heavy experiences were agreed to by our higher self as a learning experience, the purpose of this article is practicality, what can we do day to day to make use of that awareness?
How you respond to circumstances is what determines your state of being. - Bashar