A couple weeks back I wrote an Instagram post on receiving my sword in a holotropic breathwork session. Today's post covers a trip to Dowth, a sacred site in Ireland, where a couple years ago I received my crown in an initiation. Dowth, and more famously Newgrange are Irish sites older than the Egyptian pyramids and Stonehenge. Dowth is a collapsed cairn or tomb, in an area of Ireland where there are many of these sites, some really overrun with tourism. But Dowth is often quiet, not many people go there, you can drive up a narrow country road, pull in to the side and simply walk into the field and walk around.
Myself and a friend had been visiting a few of these sites regularly when guided to. Dowth to us had been revealed as the home of what we termed as Dark Mother, the shadow of Mother, the frustrated, manipulated, manipulative, abandoned, undesired, unfulfilled side of the feminine.
We have experienced periods in this life and previously when we felt more connected to the earth, to nature, and to ourselves, to our instinct, our spirit, in tune with life, in the flow. This is the beauty of being in tune with the Inner World, not lost in it imagining light bubbles and chakras, but in harmony.
Our lives in the modern world especially are so busy, and so full of distractions that it's understandable that we can get sucked into the Outer World, the physical plane, and think that our experience represents who we are.
Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside dreams, who looks inside awakens. - Carl Jung
It’s the spring equinox, and later this evening the full moon peaks.
Earlier I felt I needed to be still. I sat in the dark, as I do often, and observed within.
I became aware of fierce tension in my upper back and neck.
I stayed present with it and allowed it to lock with tightness. I witnessed it, the tension, the energy, the frequency as being. I welcomed it and assured it I was not going anywhere. I would stay there forever in that state, I had no place to go. This raging frequency within me was and is my priority.
I invited it to live within my heart and assured it that we were one.
Out of the chaos came the light. Out of the will came life. - The Egyptian Book of the Dead
Twelve years ago I was in a Ramtha retreat high in the Italian mountains, far away from anywhere. After a focus exercise, I stopped breathing for what felt like minutes. I mean three or four minutes. My body didn’t breathe, I had no need to breathe. I didn’t plan or intend this, my mind was elsewhere until I realised my body was no longer breathing, so I lay there and observed the stillness, until the breath began again.
If you're invested in security and certainty, you are on the wrong planet.
— Pema Chödrön
I think our journey, certainly as human beings, consists of two overall stages, the journey away from ourselves, to expand, to play, to grow and be tested. And then a second stage, the journey back home, to return to ourselves. Both stages I imagine can take many many lifetimes.
Freedom meant one thing to him - home. But they wouldn't let him go home.
We are already free, we are already whole, we are already enough, but to realise these states, can only be done by testing the boundaries, to find the walls of the cage, to push against them, to indulge in all the third dimensional pleasures and distractions, and lose ourselves. By losing our true spirit, by getting lost down narrow avenues, we realise we miss the great expanse of our own souls, and as this discomfort settles in, so begins the journey home. We must lose ourselves, to find ourselves. This is the journey we are on. This is the Homecoming. And from this life, right now, (you did chose to come to this site and read this article), if we can retain some degree of self awareness, can hold a beginning, middle and end, we can add a little more conscious wisdom to our storehouse, and very gradually the path begins to unfold before us.
Whereas once I was lost, now I am found,
Whereas once i was blind now i can see
Some changes happening with the healing work I do. As this work evolves I am seeing how best to tailor it, to hopefully give those I work with the best experience, and to honour the work itself. I am humbled and honoured to do this work with whoever comes my way.
The articles I wrote recently discussing the theory that all presented in our lives is a reflection of our consciousness, have changed my life, and view of the world, and I feel this is only the beginning of what can transpire as a result of this observation. I will be writing and speaking in more detaile on this subject.
For now, the YouTube channel The Higher Self kindly converted the articles to spoken word, so find the link below if you wish to have a listen to this subject.
We live in an extremely dependent society, with many calling for more dependency. Governments are growing worldwide, with protesters in the streets calling for even more government control of their lives. As I've mentioned before in articles and videos, this crying out is an inability to be still, to observe and release our own rising pain. Unaware that this discomfort stems from within, many want someone else to be responsible, or to make them feel better. I seek power, and there are others I see and admire who are drawing up that great energy from deep within.
Self empowerment is not handed to us by politicians or revolutionaries. And we don't battle enemies to attain it, we battle ourselves.
I have a routine of exercises I've used in the past to manifest what I needed. In recent days I have restarted part of this routine and will add to it in the coming days. I will be writing about what I'll be doing to generate a different life for myself. So you're welcome to practice these exercises along with me, it would be great to see others benefit from this work too.
Money and work flowed, and I managed to get to a point of getting 80% of predictions of roulette numbers correct, consistently.